Friday, May 20, 2011

Luke 12:29-31

"And do not seek what you are to eat and what you are to drink, nor be worried. For all the nations of the world seek after these things, and your Father knows that you need them. Instead, seek his kingdom, and these things will be added to you."

Monday, May 16, 2011

One Way

I think there are no words to express my past 3 weeks.  I do apologize for the lack of posts in this past month.  My life has been hectic.  If anything, these past few weeks have added another notch to my life and broadened my experimental horizon. 

It seems as though my life has turned upside down.  So much has happened and I am afraid, none of which could I classify as "Good".  Although I would love to explain in more detail the events of which I am describing, but it must be left unsaid.  I will give you this, the devil is at work. There is no other way to explain it.  It chills me to have to give any mention this this purely evil thing, but it is true. 

Right now, my life is in a raging battle, a battle between good and evil.  I feel like I am out of a Steven Spielberg movie.  Never in my life, have I experienced temptations to this extent.  Never in my life, have I ever felt this much out of control.  Never in my life, have I felt so hopeless, scared, and belittled.  With all the work the devil is doing in trying to get me away from God, I wonder why he even tries? Surely he must know that God always wins and would never give up on me? Although I admit I have been fighting with those doubts, but I am even more reassured now.  Somehow God will get me through this... somehow. 

My close friends have been telling me that this is the time in my life where I really need to take advantage of the resources God has given us to fight with in these battles.  I have been kind of pushing them off, cause that is what I always have done, I procrastinate. But I'm thinking I better start. 

I don't write this blog in expectation for a pity party, but more so to equip those who have time to pray for me.  If you can that will be great.  Lord knows, I need it.

Thank you everyone! Your support is a blessing.  I leave you with this verse:
"Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up.  You will increase my honor and comfort me once again." Psalms 71:20-21