Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Day 3

Day 3 of unemployment is coming to a close.  It has been going smoothly and wonderfully.  My worries are increasingly diminishing everyday as thankfully my past has not crept up on me.  I have been making it through the days quite well.  I talked with my sister before my job ended, as she was laid off a few months ago, how she is handling the days to her self.  She mentioned the key is to start moving right away.  Take a shower, don't dottle and start watching TV.  Thanks to her great advice, that is precisely what I have been doing.  Getting up the second I awake, eat breakfast, take my shower, do some work around the house, job search and whatever else needs to be done that day.  I am so thankful that God has been helping me through this, I know I would not be able to get through these days to myself if it were only 1 year ago.  There is some things you know you just can't do on your own, and this is one of them.  It is only by God's precious grace I am getting through these 24 hour days.

I know some of you were wondering how my move went, well it went very well! I am all settled in at my new residency.  The family I moved in with is so ridiculously amazing that I can hardly believe how blessed I am.  I pray they get a double handful of blessings every night.  My room, well lets just say, ever since I left for Mercy, I've been in a room, I couldn't really decorate.  Even after Mercy, I lived with my uncle using his furniture in the guest bedroom.  I decorated a little bit but it still wasn't crying "me".  I went and unpacked boxes that have been stored for two years now and grabbed my old decorations and cute things I've missed.  My room is beautiful.  With a black bookshelf stocked full of good books and DVD's, a black and silver desk decorated with shinny things, Red, silver, black accents through out the room, and my lovely twin bed with my beautiful comforter and sheets.  I've missed my room and I'm so happy it's returned.  Hint* Can you tell I love Black, Silver, and Red????

Thanks to some great friends, I had four helpers show up to help me move.  I can't thank them enough for their great kindness and generosity in helping me.  It took longer than I expected but I heard no complaints.  I can't thank them enough.  It's amazing to me how God is showing me what true friendships are.  The kind where, we can be so outright honest with each other, or jump to the other person's aid with out question.  The kind where they treat you with respect, and value your friendship.  I LOVE having God be in control of things! They work out soooooo much better!

Friday, June 18, 2010

Last Day

I'm finishing up my last day of work! Kind of scary to think about.  I have only 30 minutes left. Prayers are much appreciated, and job referrals!

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Getting Prepared

I've been keeping myself busy trying to organize everything for the big changes coming up.  With my job ending and moving into a different place happening in the same weekend, THIS weekend, I've got plenty to think about and do. 

Right now as I sit at work, with no work, I am trying to get everything ready for my last day on Friday; flipping files, rearranging supplies, cleaning everything, moving things around, and really trying to create the least amount of work for my manager the day I leave.  This job has been good to me, I'm sad it has to end but happy about what ever new and exciting thing God has in store for my employment next.  I've just flipped about 150 file folders so that they can be reused, and still have about 150 more to go.  Exciting I know!

Not to mention, while sitting here at work for my Monday through Friday 8 hour job, I have ample amount of time to sit here and organize in my head what I can be doing at home to get ready for the move.  I would love nothing more to be at home performing these tasks but, I mid-as-well get another paycheck in before I leave.  

Throughout all of this, I am remaining in high-spirits.  With my only source of income being completely diminished, I'm surprised I'm not more worried than I am.  Somehow I know, I will be taken care off.  With every activity I've been involved in basically coming to a close by this Friday, I have more concern in the area of what exactly I will do to pass up the time.  The only thing I have left on my calendar for the summer is literally Sunday morning Church.  I'm trying not to worry about all this time to myself.  Switching to a view from the past, time to myself included stuffing my face full of food, watching non-stop movies/TV, and emotionally beating myself up every hour of the day... I know who I was.  But that's just it... That is who I WAS.  I'm curious to see how I react to this period of life being the new person God has molded me to be.  Don't get me wrong, I'm still a lump of clay in the Potter's hands but at least I have a little form now to that lump of clay.  I'll probably make mistakes, there will be days when things go wrong, but the key is to learn from those mistakes and keep pressing on, gaining even more ground then the ground that was lost. 

Needless to say, I am actually quite excited about these changes, because out of the changes even more emotional changes might happen! And I like those types of changes. 

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

In Christ Alone

Look at these powerful words from a great song... I pray these words become my lifesong.

In Christ alone my hope is found,
He is my light, my strength, my song;
this Cornerstone, this solid Ground,
firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace,
when fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My Comforter, my All in All,
here in the love of Christ I stand.

In Christ alone! who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe!
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones he came to save:
Till on that cross as Jesus died,
The wrath of God was satisfied -
For every sin on Him was laid;
Here in the death of Christ I live.

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain:
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave he rose again!
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me,
For I am His and He is mine -
Bought with the precious blood of Christ.
No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the power of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath.
Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.
I especially want you to notice this line...
 "Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me"
We are no longer a slave to sin everyone... we've been FREED.  Don't look at sin with fear, but with strength knowing God has given you the power to overcome them.  Not even sin could keep you away from God, he loves us too much to let such a small thing come in between you and Him.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010